I don't look good in green.

After connecting with a guy I knew (envied) in high school, Andy Farkas, I realized that my life could have been incredibly different.

Being confronted with the idea that I could have made choices that would have lead to more success as an artist only makes me think that I what I have now somehow pales in comparison.

But, would I have been happy in that life? Would I have stayed mediocre, only to be more obviously and continually confronted with artists who were "better"? I have been plagued with mediocrity my whole life--I can do a lot of things "okay", but nothing really well. I'm a mediocre artist, musician, writer, cook, parent, wife...and one look at Andy's work made that all the more obvious. If I had chosen to follow another path, I wouldn't have the husband and child I have now. Part of me wants to break away, start over, and see what would have become of me, and the rest of me wants to figure out where this course will take me.

I'm very depressed.

I'm five.

Or will be in a couple of days. Add the numbers together sort of thing. So, I was completely blindsided by my first ever surprise birthday party--Hello Kitty theme, of course. Now I have a ton of HK swag, and got so full of cake and lemonade that I almost did the technicolor meow.

It was so cool. I just can't tell you how loved (and tricked) I felt when I saw my friends and some family there, and learned all of the secret planning and HK e-vite stuff. Carol is the bomb.

So, thanks guys, for making an awesome day for me. You all rule!




Oh, and yesterday I heard the funniest name--this guy actually changed it to this, and then later changed it to Variable--Snaphappy Fishsuit Mokiligon. Love it.

OUCH!!

So, for the past few months, I've been nauseous, and my stomach has been burning and bloating constantly. Yuck, right? So I had an upper endoscopy today, and heres what's wrong:

Gastritis
Hiatal Hernia
4 ulcers
Grade 2 Esophagial erosion.
Multiple cold biopsies for Helicobacter pylori infection.

So, that explains the problems. Now I'm on Prevacid. Yay.

No chocolate-covered fried chicken and orange juice for me today. Oh, well.

I'm effing hardcore, bitches.

Okay, so I went in for a colonoscopy (yeah, ew, I know) and had some weird things removed from my innards. The cool thing, though, is that I now have a tattoo on the inside of my colon. Two dots of india ink. So, like, I have a colon on my colon. How cool is that?

(Hey, at least for one day of my life I wasn't full of s**t.)

Fun!!!

Just in case you want to give Syphilis for Christmas...

Giant Microbes

Yay!

My Sea Monkeys have hatched!

Yes, I'm a whiner.

But you knew that. (Love you, big brother).



Oh, and I want this:
The Hello Kitty Ferrari.

Yeah.